The tears are straining
dieing to break free
But I'm doing all I can
So that they don't see
I've fu*cked up so much
I can barley stand
Why did I do this?
I should have taken your hand
When you offered me the help
You told me it'd be OK
But I didn't listen
I just shoved you away
And now I'm sitting here
Typing these words
And although I'm screaming
I know they haven't heard
I'm best at hiding things
Keeping them all inside
I like it more that way
I like it better when I hide
When I put that smile on
I laugh and giggle all day
But they don't understand
I never mean what I say
I'm just trying to move on
Let go of my past
But I can't seem to do it
I just can't seem to last
I'm just that messed up
I'm dieing for the pills
The medication, it's addiction
And it only makes me ill
But I'd rather puke
than remember that I'm me
I'll drink myself away
Before I'll like what I see
For the mirror always cracks
And my reflection is white
The color has drained
And this isn't right
My eyes are so red
bloodshot in pain
My lungs are still breathing
still inhaling in vain
for there's nothing there
the air is all gone
and my heart isn't sure
if this is all wrong
it wonders why
Why am I still beating?
She doesn't care
She she's still retreating
She always runs away
Deep into the night
Where the cold wind blows
and stars shine bright
And the moon isn't out
It's with the fairies she'll say
But she's just lost hope
And thinks it's gone away
I think she's too tiered
I think she's a mess
She's losing herself
She needs some rest
She should have let them in
She should have let them care
But she never let anyone
Ever be there
And now she's losing it
There's no one here
And it's her own fault
she now cries these tears
There's no one to blame
she went too far
and now it's over
nothing is left but the scars
and the blood that drained
the heart that she tore
she was really that lost
there was nothing to live for
she gave up on herself
she really hated her soul
she knew she was nothing
just an empty black hole
she just caused pain
she only brought cries
Left people broken
Only wondering why
But she fixed it now
She can't hurt them again
She took herself away
Now the sadness can end
*I've managed to lose one of the greatest friends of my life today because I wouldn't let them in, I truly do hate myself for that. Thank you all for reading. Always-
Shattered and Broken.*
