One Last Swipe

One last swipe
I sit holding the knife
which first got me here
only thinking of why I did it

I'll try to re-open these scars
but this skin is tougher than ever
the pain more intense than ever

The blood
drips down my arm
The blood
on the blade more noticeable than ever

How deep will I go?
Oh; the sting of this blade across my new skin

this one is for you-
making me think you're better than me
letting myself sink to your level

How deep will I go?
Oh; the sting cutting through my new skin

pulling the knife along even slower
to make sure I remember this pain
tonight will be the last night I ever do this

How deep will I go?
Oh; the sting cutting through my new skin
I'm going to make this pain last the night

One last swipe.
I hold this knife;
dropping it to the ground,
Only to pick it up again

I look at the blade
and;
The pain its caused
Was it worth it?