Tired

I'm tired..........
Tired of everything and nothing at the same time
I don't want it to change but if it doesn't I'll die
I hate the way it is but I love the way it's not
I cant control it at all, I cant get me to stop
If I believed maybe I would pray
But I know I cant keep living this way
I have no power over it
It's the way I live my life in general
So sad and hopeless at every moment
And yet I do nothing to bring about change
I'm stuck in the same place with no escape