seen my soul get demolished through his very own eyes.
ive stumbled, staggered, and toiled myself through.
Time after time picking up the pieces he steadily threw.
ive faced tormenting fears, drowned in my own tears~
having a higher hope each time for 3 long years.
ive been frustrated, lost concentration of my aspiration. ive been tempted by first-class, but never given in to temptation ive been patient.
Believing that loves reward would reward me with love.
Believing that my heart and loyalty was enough.
Believing that in time all wounds would heal~
everything will be fine but its all surreal.
I know hurt Ive been there before.
Each incident was even more painful than it ever was and so forth.
How could you love someone and treat them so badly?
Ive been dragged through the dirt by this man now I have insecurity.
One minute my love for you is real the next everything was a mistake.
I never understood how one argument could suddenly flip someones heart from love to hate.
Thats when I had to realize that this four letter word never turns.
If it does it was never there. I know it doesnt because love is earned.
Anger builds up and the truth begins to emerge. Thats why I never believed his apologies of not intending on me to get hurt.
Every time was a different grime, every word he spoke there was a different lie. And throughout all of this agony, still I felt this man was the center of my life.
That one sentence alone explains how low I must have felt.
Like the pavement underneath my feet, the loss confidence in myself.
When someone told me I was beautiful~ I asked them what is that?
Its sad when you dont know you have something, you knew you once had.
There were days when all I wanted to do was curl myself up and hide.
But those days are in the past and now I look forward to living my life.
Im secure in myself, my self confidence has never been so high.
I see true beauty each day as I look into the mirror and Jawan is the only center in my life.
