BEFORE I SLEEP

Take a knife..cut in deep,
drops of blood before i sleep,
if i die before i wake life was just too cruel to take,
relief is felt and blood flows red,
feeling alive...instead of dead,
self-hatred..anger..and guilt all flow out,
total satisfaction without a doubt,
fighting depression everyday,
insecurities and fear along the way,
low self-esteem...feelings of despair,
but no body ever said life was fair,
there's allot of us here...u see,
abused...broken..wanting to be free,
were afraid..scared..needing care,
looking for help..is anyone there?!?!?!?