I can't.

Lately I cant do anything right,
I cant smile without a thought of plain crossing my mind.
I cant talk to you without feeling alone.
I cant be happy just smiling and knowing your there.
I cant tell the difference between lies and beginnings.
I cant be happy knowing I didnt well.
I cant because I can always find something wrong.
I cant call you wishing I was with you because I know you dont feel the same.
I cant cry without feeling ashamed.
I cant be crazy without feeling out of place.
I cant listen with out talking.
I cant speak without thinking.
And I cant be frustrated without letting a tear falling from my eye.
I cant pretend Im okay because all I do is lie.
I cant be friends with them because I miss them.
I can because all everyone does is lie.
I cant hold open a door without thinking,what if it was me.
I cant take being last because I know that she comes first.
I cant tell you how I feel because I cant tell myself.
I cant be normal because I don respect my self,
And Iv found that lately I can trust anyone but myself.