Touch my friends. It seems like it's not enough for me to write these blogs, or just to invite them to come with me to church. I can't do it on my own. I want to let the people I know and care about see and feel what I know when I read your scriptures... in fact, what I read! Draw them closer and closer to you... I've given up everything so that I can follow You. Renew my mind... clean my heart... these dreams won't stop and I don't want them to. This is not just a phase... This is a REVELATION! Help them see... What can I do? What do you want me to say? I would do anything to know in an absolute that my friends are saved... let them know that they must be filled with your Holy Spirit... that they have to be baptizd in the name of Jesus Christ so that all their sins can be forgotten against them and as a result their habits are changed...
When I wasn't following you I reasoned that I could wait until "later" to fix my relationship with You, because I was selfish, wanting all the time I could get to do whatever I wanted. I wanted to try some drugs, be able to wear certain clothes, be able to see certain people, and be able to "praise" but not touch Your throne. When I was younger I cried for hours just to be filled with your Holy Spirit, and to speak in tongues... but it never came. I see now that it was because I was not fully committed to You. Now that I am, it is like i am on fire. There is no strength like this. There is no... nothing like this!! Help them, Lord! If it means taking the protection away from me so that they can see the truth then let it be! I don't want them to fail... I don't want them to one day see you and realize that there was one or two things that they didn't do when the rest of their lives revolved around you.
I gave you everything and I rejoice in it. I praise and worship you now Lord. Jesus, continue to make me whole. There is none like You, Lord! I worship You and lift You us as the Most High God. And I love you more than anything else...and I will do whatever you tell me to do... not because there is anything in it for me on earth, but because I am certain this is what I want... to be able to know you and cry out knowing that you hear me and are smiling at me. That I am in your awesome... presence.
