I feel like I'm losing them.
They just seem to come & go.
I feel excluded.
Left out.
Rejected.
& alone.
I feel like I have disappointed them.
I always seem to reap whatever I sow.
I feel deserted.
Annoying like a dripping spout.
Dissed.
Old & forgotten.
I am just losing my friends.
Or at least that's how I feel.
But, it's okay right...
I'll make new ones. Right?
No! It's not okay.
& yeah, you might make new ones.
But, they will never be the same.
I miss my old friends.
I miss our closeness.
I miss our relationships.
I miss my sister.
I wish the accident hadn't happened.
I just wish...
I wish life was like a fairy tale.
But, I know it will never be..
So, why do I keep wishing...
Cause some day,
I hope that all this wishing.
Will never have to be.
Cause some day there won't be anyone left for me to be missing.
Cause I will be back with this some day.
All of those who I have been missing,
All of them will be around me.
That's why I have to keep wishing.
Wishing that some day this silly fairy tale...
Wouldn't be some stupid wish.
I hope that some day,
It'll be reality.
But, until that day,
You'll find me here.
Just wishing away.
I am here.
Just living life day by day.
So, if you need to find me, I'm here.
Just wishing for that day.
