In loving memory

You are my role model and though you have passed
The memories we shared together forever they will last.
No one made me smile more and I Was little crying on the floor.
You would pick me up and pat my back and tell me things to make me laugh.
You told me about all your trips, i would just stare at you amazed.
No thoughts of losing you were ever running through my head at that age.
And when I heard the news, it hit me like bat.
I never thought I'd see you gone and didn't want to believe it was a fact.
I cried about it for days, and still want to deny that the one who made me happy has gone and died.
I look up at the sky and hope to see you there, but as soon as i think of you my tears make you disappear.
I hold onto my pictures and i hold onto my bear, i think of you and know that even though your gone i know that you still care.
I know you would want me to be happy, not spend my life inside.
but when I heard that phone call about it a part of me died.
I sit here today and it has almost been a year, but I'm still holding onto my hopes and letting go of my fears.
You taught me how to stand my ground, not to let anyone boss me around.
That I was my own person and could say what i felt.
But I still find it unfair the way the cards were dealt.
I stare up at my ceiling and i swear I can hear your laugh and as soon as I think about it my mind brings up the past.
I know I am still growing and I know your watching over me.
and my only wish is to be with you and see what you can see.
I'm doing things to make you proud, and when I sing the songs I sing I want you to hear so I sing them loud.
I want you to know I will never forget the way you helped me stay.
And how you made me into the person i am today.