I really let you go

I think about you often
the life we almost had
the times we spent together
how your absence made me sad
the smile on your face
the one that used to make me cry
the loss that is forever
it cut so deep I die
I try so hard to stand
but the weight brings me down
the years of wondering how you've been
do you still love her now?
will these feelings ever leave me?
do I really want them to?
I cling to them so dearly
they're all I have left of you
so if you find it in your heart
please say hello to one who cares
who never stopped believing
that life was meant for us to share