Coming home

Id been out on my own
All alone
It'd been awhile
Since Id been home
I missed everyone so much
Id almost given up
Finding my way back
To their warm loving touch
There was that fateful night when I fell asleep
I thought it was a dream
But when I woke up
Everything was exactly as it seemed
This is where it begins
And this is where it ends
The story of how I lost my family and friends
It was a midsummer day
But everything was dull and gray
And right away
I knew I was not OK
I felt tired
And removed
No desire to move
So I laid back down
Without a smile
And without a frown
I didn't think
I only stared
I never blinked
Because I was scared
Of what?
I don't know
All I knew
Was that I needed to go
To get away
From that place
And its strange
Because that morning I changed
Into something I never thought Id be
Someone I never thought Id see
Someone that I knew was not me
But I couldn't stop it
I couldn't fight
And I knew that this
wasn't right
So I locked my door
And cried
And cried
And cried
Until I could not cry anymore
After I stopped
And caught my breath
I thought....
I knew
I was depressed
I was still alive
But a little part of me had died
My parents saw
They knew something was wrong
But I forced a smile
And pretended to be strong
They would say "I love u"
And I could tell the weren't lying
But every time they said it
I felt like crying
So I left
And went far away
Some place safe
Where I couldn't be touched
couldn't feel love
And couldn't feel hate
And thats where I stayed
For too many days to count
Until one day
I decided to get out
Out of my shell
Out of my cold, numb hell
I was coming home
To the ones who had loved me
Who I hoped hadn't forgotten
Because I never forgot them
But by the time I got out
And got upstairs
I saw that they had all left me
No one was there
I had finally come home
Only to see
That I was alone
Always was
And Always will be