Why even bother with love

Love, hope, pure serenity my heart pleads but no one hears through this harsh and bitter exterior for I am to afraid to let it shine through I don't want anyone to know that I truly love you.

Speaking through this discovery of my new emotion is something that hurts me so and realizing that we can never be is my true heartache I wish you could realize that this awkward smile is fake.

For I am hurting inside it is a swelling that just wont leave me alone, it is a voice that reminds me how lonely I am and I want it to just leave on a lighter tone, to disappear to vanish, from my soul, this true understanding is something I wish I could understand...