Defending Hope and Casting Sin

Emotions flood deep within me
Like an ocean of tears caused by misery

Temptation has won me over again
Shredding my soul apart with sin

I run away hoping no on will see the fear on my face
Continuing to hold everything together instead of change

I live as a guilty person inside
Overpowering my soul with lies

Frozen hope and accessible sin
Grow stronger as the war begins

Every selfish decision has been thought through twice
But eventually I just convinced myself it was okay or right

No longer can i trust even myself
Ignoring all the pain I've ever felt

Still on my face was only a mask
Controlling everything that I lack

Desperately searching for someone to blame
When its been me all along...every thing's the same

I want so much to be satisfied
To no longer be afraid to die

But death is the least of my worries
When a second chance remains as one of my uncertainties

Death can be around the corner or down the road
Either way no one knows

I'm just fed up with this life that I treat as a game
There's got to be more to me..for once I'm willing to change