Confusion

This feeling I get in the pit of my stomach,
I can't quite put my finger on it.
It feels so good,
yet at the same time bad.
I know who is causing it,
but I want to run from it

It is that feeling you get when your body shakes
When the world around you is staying in place.
It is that feeling you get when you fall in love
When that special someone holds you tight.
It is that feeling you get when your heart also breaks.
When excuses are made to walk out the door.

This feeling, so hard to explain
It drives me crazy, it drives me mad.
I want to keep it, yet throw it away.
The Reason I walk, the reason i breathe
It subtracts the anger, but multiplies the pain.

I pull you close, but push you away.
My mind is confused, at this moment in time.
It feels so right, yet I know that its wrong.
Walk with me, just a few more steps.
So maybe I will figure out whats the best.
Am I wrong to stay, or would it be wrong to go.
Am I losing my mind, I just don't know.

Someone please catch me as I fall to this ground.
Is it more then just friendship that I want so much?
Give me some answers, better yet reason on why.
Reasons on why I am not in time.

I break and I shatter and I just fall apart.
But the one who I fell upon is the reason no doubt.
Was I blind this whole time?
He was right in front of me, yet through my idioticness I must have over looked the truth.
I was living a lie, and no one said a word.
The truth was there the whole time.

My heart has stumbled upon a man so kind.
A man so apreciative, a man who will treat me right.
So sorry my dear for i could not see the truth seemed hidden, yet was right in front of me.