Memories and apologies

Don't know how to breathe.
Or how to truly be
when nothings right
and there's no way how
to get us back to us.

My head is throbbing;
my knees are weak
if I sit down and try
I doubt I could think
of what I would say.

I gave it a few months.
It hasn't been long enough
I want to break down,
but I know that deep inside
I gotta be real tough.

My head is throbbing hard
and I really think that I've
been dealt the wrong card.
I don't see how love can
be just tossed away.

My eyes can hardly focus on
this screen and my mood
lately has become awfully mean
I want to get over this and learn
to live without you again.

The tears don't come out much
anymore, mostly because my
body's feelings are well past sore.
My hands can barely type,
and my lungs can hardly exhale.

Gotta go to work again
take lunch with a good friend
learn to distract my memories
no more running from them
just constant apologies..

I was sitting down writing you that letter
over and over until I felt it was right
and every word had been found,
but in my heart we're not over so it won't ever be right
and us together we won't ever be found.

Trying to hold back the tears tonight
It's been a while since they've truly
seen my emotions start to fight.
I really wonder what everyone thinks of me,
when I walk through life in this daze.

No more jumping on the bed
to wake you up for work
or when I want to play with the hair on your head.
Me and you had that good perk,
and its something I'll never get back again

How do you mend a broken heart?
Hot chocolate and a lot of talking.
How do you stand being apart?
Don't think about the happy things.
How do you go on after breaking her down?

The pressure inside my brain
and the tensity throughout my veins
could never ever take away all this pain
that you left on my heart
after you decided to part.

How could you do this?
Give up such a passionate kiss.
I never saw this coming
is that what I truly get
for falling?