Some say love is pain
But it is better to have loved then lost
Which is the less evil?
What do we gain by the others sacrifice and at what cost?
Love has shown me the greatest joy
With vivid memories of laughter and care.
It has also shown me life
And made me face my biggest fear.
Do we hate love cause of the heartache
Or the pain,
Of when we think the one we love is cheating
Or holding us in vain?
I know that I am my worst enemy
I see him everyday
But nothing hurts me more about love
Then when she tells me what she really has to say.
She loves me too
And this is good to hear
But she has memorized my every word
And my actions are what bring her tears.
She tells me my faults
And not to bring me down
But by telling me the pain
I have caused in her and why her love is trapped and bound.
She wants forever with me
But my actions prove that I am not fare
To be with perfection
In a league I should not have dared.
I knew she was an angel
From the first time we met
With her by my side I feared nothing
Not even my death.
But now I know a great fear
One I always knew but chose to ignore
That I am not good enough
And I should have realized this before.
Our lives have been as one for 9.5 years
As not one second do I regret
But I don’t know if she feels the same
And she still keeps that a secret.
I have made many mistakes
And this I know is true
That she has not done one to me
Or made me feel miss-used.
Maybe they say love hurts because of truths we find out
Not about our partner but of ourselves.
Are we who we think we are,
Or do we just pretend
That our love is just as strong
As the one we chose as more than a friend?
Inside me I know that I am better than who I show
I am better than lies and deceit
I am better than my own foe.
Love has shown me
That I am worse than who I thought I could be
I am cruel and dishonest
Everything I wished I would not be.
Love is the greatest pain
Not because of the assuming of our jealous minds
But because we find out who WE really are
And who that is still remain benign.
