I won't let this build up inside of me

She seemed dressed in all of me,
Stretched across my shame.
All the torment and the pain,
Leaked through and covered me.

I'd do anything to have her to myself,
Just to have her for myself.
Now I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do,
When she makes me feel sad.

I don't want to be this but,
I won't let this build up inside of me

She is everything to me.
The unrealistic dream.
The song that no one sings.
The Unfindable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in.
All I need to make it real is one more reason.

A catch in my throat, choke,
Torn into pieces, I won't. No,
She isn't real.
I can't make her real.

I don't want to be this but,
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to do when she makes me feel sad.
But I won't let this build up inside of me.