My Letter

Dear God,
I know I havent talked to you in a little while
But maybe you'll know why I can no longer smile
I'm so use to believing in only the things I can see
But now I could really use some of your philosophy

It's funny how quickly things can change
Once the world was my canvas, now it's rearranged
I'm so scared I don't have this future anymore
It seems all my dreams just went out the door

I have failed myself as I failed you too
And now I'm so lost I can't even see what's true
All my life I had just one simple plan
But now it's fallen apart by my own hand

So now I am down on both my knees
And for the first time I cry out all my pleas
Do you know what it's like to be a nobody inside?
To have no future or any place to hide?

Just thinking about all the effort I wasted away
Makes me want to give up in the worst way
I'm not the type to give into these thoughts in my head
But what's left for me to go on, what's left to be said?

So here I am, this is my last try tonight
If you ignore my cries I'll have no will to fight
I can't stand to feel this fear and pain anymore
I can't stand to face the disappointment I'll endure