Your Hair Smelled Like Night

Everything's falling back into place;
Because finally everything's falling apart.
I thought maybe I could escape this phase,
But apparently pain is branded to my heart.
Everything's collapsing in these walls around my mind-
What�s wrong with me- how'd I think there was love left to find?

Memories, no matter how hard I try to chain them down,
Are always coming back, forcing me to drown.
I'm desperately caged in my very own thoughts-
But no matter how much I wanted, I never fought.
I'm floundering about in this ocean of lost hopes and dreams:
Happiness is cold, nothing is what it really seems.

I'm running so much faster than everyone else, but yet I always lose-
This is not a fate that I have been able to choose.
I want so badly to walk away from my past life, but I'm not able to let go,
Of a person that new nothing but constantly issuing blow after blow.

These faded pictures on my wrists refuse to forgive-
[Refuse to forget]
I'm trying so hard to live,
Yet I'm stalked by regret.

Memories follow me like a second shadow, always there-
The pressure pushing down on me is much more than I can bear.
I need to escape, and see the moonlight on your cheeks just once more,
I have to feel again how lovely night air smells; how it was you I adored.
I'm begging you, love, please erase these cuts with kisses from your heart,
Silence my flaws and insecurities by promising that we�ll never again part.

You'll never forgive,
You'll never forget.
We're trying so hard to live-
But it's you I regret.