**note, read [in memory of a love that never bloomed] before reading this poem
When we first met, a frown was practically glued to your face
From then on I promised to find a way to get it erased
I'd smile all the time, and say my favorite jokes
Yet no matter what I did, You'd always have a sad look
I learned once, though, that mistakes pose a goal
I've found mine this time; To reach out to your soul
With you I found comfort, though depressed you did seem
You always pointed the positive aspects there were to me
I found myself falling, but not all that fast
I decided to keep it inside, to make our friendship last
I didn't want to take the risk and put a stop to this joy
Just to have a higher relationship between girl and boy
One day it seemed after months of our friendship
I've accomplished my goal, but that wasn't the end of it
We've gotten closer and I wouldn't change it for the world
But I was afraid to let you know, fearing being left in the cold
I've given you hints, signs of my interest
Yet not once did you read them, or is this one of your tests
I was starting to hurt but I could bear it all still
Just as long as our friendship stays real
Months passed some more, and the pain hasn't died
I've found it harder lately to muster a smile
You haven't told me the words I want so much to hear
Yet I still can't be open, lest confirm my worst fear
You've touched my heart in a mysterious way
And that effect has lasted, even up to today
I would give everything just to hear it from you
Yet it's probably obvious, my dream won't come true
I didn't want to be led on, just to be hurt again
So I made a choice to get away from my friend
I left you for that reason, but it became depression
Something like withdrawal, I had your initial expression
With this note I leave, I hope to finally reach out
In this world of luxuries, it's you I can't live without
My final goodbye to stop the nights of endless tears
I say to you everything I ever wanted to hear
The months that passed I hold very close
I relive them when we parted, I felt so alone
I still fear to tell you in person my secret truth
So I've written here clearly, that I do love you
I wished so badly that you'd hold me and say
"I hope we never meet the end of today"
For when night would come we would part
And wait for another day to start
I couldn't stand that, and I'm hurt inside
I can no longer project a smile
Now I'll be free, after this suicide
I only wish you loved me too... Good Bye...
