I normally expect the worst
but with you i didnt
i thought everything would be fine
i thought you would be out of hospital
in a few days
your condition deteriorated
but no doubts crossed my mind
i thought you would pull through
i really did
i try to think back
i try to reconcile the memories of that day
i was coming to see you
just a normal visit
i never imagined that day would be the day
you left us
i hated it, not being allowed
to go in to see you
your condition worsened
no one could believe it
when those nurses came in
and told us you were critically ill
then 2 seconds later came back
and said they were sorry
they had done all they could
i didnt even get the chance to say goodbye
not properly anyway
i didnt get the chance
to hold you in my arms, one last time
i didnt get the chance to hold your hand
as you took your last breath
i wish i have been given that chance
i really do
i would have held your hand
while you peacefully
slipped away
