Suffering.
Crying.
The pain.
It's all shut in behind the locked door.
Simply hidden in the silence of darkness.
you can't control it.
And, no matter how hard you try, you can't make it go away.
Not a word spoken.
Not even a whisper.
The silence screams in your mind.
Questions and racing thoughts.
When will this all end?
Why are you so alone?
You being alone make you who you are.
A pale, mascara-stained face.
You're so perfect in all your loneliness.
Your imperfections add up in your mind.
You see nothing good.
The pain grows worse.
You try to scream, but no sound will escape from your mouth.
Panic crawls through your body.
You start to choke and you gasp for air.
No one is around, of course.
You fall into more darkness.
A new world that is no longer yours.
Maybe it's your fantasy.
Or even a dream.
Still, the darkness remains and you are the only one around.
You walk slowly and cautiously.
You can't see a single thing.
Black surrounds and closes in on you.
More panic arises from within.
You start to shake.
And, as soon as your about to give into this darkness, a white light shines through.
You eyes jolt open.
It wasn't a dream.
Just another blackout.
You can't live this way anymore.
Someone needs to help you.
And, they need to sat for all eternity.
But, it's so hard to trust anyone.
And, you never open up.
You don't trust your words so you save them.
So what is supposed to happen now?
Running from it all will only make the problems worse.
Staying locked inside just makes you collapse deeper into yourself.
Whatever the solution, you remain in pain.
you try to cry for help one last time.
And still, no one hears you.
You give up completely.
Your bed welcomes you as you lay down.
A light enters our room and someone walks in.
This person lays down beside you and wraps you in their arms.
You hear the words "I am here" whispered in your ear.
You whisper back slowly "Never leave".
He looks you in the eyes and makes that a promise.
Feeling safe, you fall asleep for the first time in a week.
You awaken to the sun and still being held in his arms.
He smiles and kisses you softly of your forehead.
You both begin to talk about what happened last night.
You proceed to confide in him and say everything.
It feels so good to let it all go.
Talking so much makes you tired and together, you fall asleep.
Several hours pass.
Suddenly, you awaken.
And, you feel that something is wrong.
You roll over in the bed.
He's gone.
Yet again, something goes wrong.
He left you all over again.
You're left all alone.
The pain is so much worse.
His broken promise makes more tears fall.
Eventually you stop and become so numb.
All the feelings you had have left your body.
It's all over.
You have finally given up completely.
You accept the fact that you'll always be alone.
Maybe that's how things were meant to be.
You have no strength to fight any longer.
Suddenly your exhaustion over powers you.
You stay in bed and decide to sleep.
Again, you fall into darkness.
Into a world so familiar to you now.
All your pain disappears in this world.
This is where you will stay.
No color can save you now.
Forever lost in black.
