Cunfused

I'm so confused about my life. i don't know what to do. its all mixed up nothing makes since to me any more. its all confusing now. i would like to know what life is suppose to be like. never had a real life until now but its confusing. i don't know what I'm suppose to do. just don't get it. how does every one else live the life they do? every one has different personalties. they show things i never had. how do they do it? what triggers them? what are they for? whats the meaning of them? why do they have them? i just don't get why i never had these things before. why did i live the life i did? its all confusing to me. i don't get it what am i suppose to do now that a new life? whats the meaning of life? why do we have these things in life? they make my life confusing. they make no since to me. do i have them? why do i have them? what am i suppose to do with them? why do i need them? my old life was a Lil world of loneliness,slavery,self mutilate,& suicide. my new way of life is a world of happiness,love,&peace.my new way of life is confusing!since i lived my old way of life for fourteen years. then i meet my true love & changed my old way of life & started my new way of life thats confusing .and I'm still trying to figure it out.