The first but not the last

Another mistake
And its there to stay
A beautiful, red stain
Guilt fills my conscience
But then Anger pushed it out of the way

"Why am I like this?"

Then it sinks in
The blame

"I's all their fault
They do this to me!"
But I know it's not true
I do this to me
ME
But why....?

I uncover the evidence
Just to see how deep the damage is
And it's sting
Brings back bad memories

"Will I ever be 'normal' again?"