So Afraid

The night is silent and all I can hear is your breathing
I look up and see the stars sparkling in the sky
And the moon shining bright, in all its fullness

As we lay, my head on your chest,
I realize that I should be the happiest girl in the world right now
I should be sitting here enjoying the feel of your arms around me without worrying about anything else

Yet all I can do is wonder if I'm doing this right
Do you really like me? Am I coming on to strong?
Or should I do more to show you I that I really do care?

I cant even lie boy, you make me feel so nervous
You make me forget how to do the simplest things
My legs get weak, I forget how to walk,
My chest feels tight, breathing is impossible

You seem so experienced,
You've probably had to many girls to count
And I'm just starting out in this game,
I'm that girl thats never been kissed

I should tell you, I should let you know how afraid you make me
But I cant, I can barely breathe around you
How am I supposed to not trip over my words?

Gosh I'm so afraid that you'll realize I'm not what you want
That you'll see that maybe I'm not good enough for you
And that you won't want me anymore

It's so much easier to just stand there and look pretty
Then to let you inside and risk rejection
I'm so afraid you won't want me, damn I'm so afraid you won't want me

Because I want you so bad, I need you
I love the way you make me feel
And I love the way you touch me
And I'm so afraid that you'll find someone else who won't be afraid of this