Why is it the holidays always get me down
The only thing I seem to carry today is a frown.
I can't lie, I missing him and its almost killing me.
I want so bad to take my last fifty bucks and flee.
Everything that I love is gone, and not coming back.
It's Christmas morning and my love is the one thing I lack.
All I wanted for Christmas was him to come home to me.
I know we're officially through and together again we'll never be.
If I had a choice I'd be sittin' at a bar drinking away this pain.
But becoming an alcoholic on his memory, what would I gain?
My heart is hurting more than I can stand to bare.
I talked to his mom yesterday I don't know why I dared.
She had me in tears trying to make me feel bad.
But all she did was increase my feelings of sad.
Think I might just pack all my shit and drive away.
But wherever I end up I know wouldn't be a better day.
Maybe I'll just finish the pain and drive that piece of shit off a cliff.
My heart and mind can't stop wandering and I'm becoming stiff.
I know now he never loved me and it cuts real deep.
Whats the point, it solves nothing, even though I'd like to weep.
I don't think I'll ever learn to move on.
It's so hard to live since that boy's been gone.
Guess I'll have to learn to breathe alone here.
But losing great love is my greatest fear.
No wonder I'm so scared.
