Suicide note

How could you let someone not get close to your heart? And it still tear you up inside, tears you apart.
Makes you wish you never had it start.
But to late now..Why..How.
I even tried to prevent it but that failed bad.
When I tired to commit suicide. I now wish I had.
I would have ended this hate and pain, thoughts and heartache.
I should have just sliced and diced seen what I could take.
But I didnt do it, I chickened out, I got afraid.
I got week, adrenalin stopped, and I dropped the sarade.
I was able to keep breathing and seen the next day.
I saw your face just one more time and that was enough.
How could one girl do this cut my heart make me not so tough
Ill never know the answer nor do I care to know.
I just want my life to end, I just want to let go.
I'm going to commit suicide and theres nothing you can do
If only you could have stopped it if only u would have knew
everything went wrong, here when you get this check my coat,
You'll now exactly where I'm at, I explained it all, in my suicide note.