Maybe

Maybe it was all my fault
and i only deserve pain
maybe i did nothing right
so I'll just take the blame

maybe I'm better off
dead and 6 feet under
maybe i didn't cut deep enough
but then sometimes i wonder

maybe if i died at birth
then you would be glad
maybe if you hung yourself
i wouldn't have a rapist for a dad

maybe if i succeeded
but i tried so many times
maybe it was what i needed
but you couldn't read between the lines

maybe if the blood leaked out
at least for a while
maybe i wouldn't be here now
i wonder if you'd smile

maybe if i took the knife
and dug it in my veins
maybe if i took my life
you'd have something to gain