So easy

So easy to lie...
To act like I'm still alive.....
As if I can actually feel.....
So easy to lie to myself
&& others.....
Telling myself he never exisisted
Telling Andrew that I understand we'll never be more than friends
Telling my best friend not to worry cause I've stopped...
Telling myself just to move on it's fine......
but it's not fine
&& i haven't stopped
&& I still wish we were more
&& He does exisist
But I can't feel
& I may be here physically but mentally i'm destroyed
But lying is so easy
So easy to beleive
To beleive that all is perfect