Between Breaths

Between Breaths

Between my breaths
I almost forget
The reason the air
Is so full of regret

My heart doesn't hurt
My conscience is clear
I'm hardly aware
Of what happened here

The weight of the world
Can't push me down
When I'm breathing in,
But when I breath out

Then my chest pulls in
I can feel the stabs
From the knives I shoved
Into other's backs

I can't believe
I hurt you that way
I don't feel better
No matter what I say

And you stuck with me
Forgave things I've done
I don't understand
Why you didn't run?

Thank you for seeing
Who I'm trying to be
I'm grateful you look past
The flaws within me

But the oxygen here
Is wearing so thin
The damage I've done
Hurts me again

Between breaths I'm fine
And I can't feel the pain
But all other moments,
I'm just not the same.