Denial

Drops of rain...upon my face...no...they're tears...
happiness?...no that cant be right...I'd have a smile
anger? no thats wrong too...
is it pain...maybe sadness...wait its both.

Its you...your the cause....you brought the pain yet again...it just shattered me...those words....that never once stabbed me so hard...have for once targeted the hidden weakness i now feel within....reducing me to this...

this nightmare...i swore to never become again...you stole my strength...my very ability to cope...you robbed me of so much...yet I've not let you see this part of me...purely for the little pride left..

i ignored these feelings...locked them away...purely because you wanted me to change...to be happier and so much more...so please tell me why you've done this to me...why you've said the things you have....i don't know how you can justify it with you still wanting to change me...and whatever happened to my flaws being apart of why you loved me?

Normally i would take these attacks of my character and continue on...but somehow...you've knocked me down to a place from which i cannot rise alone....and yet you don't seem to notice at all...so much for never wanting to hurt me...do you not see what you're doing...how much deeper your going.

these tears began upon your spiteful words...that like an arrow drove deep within to do such damage that the pain cant just be withdrawn and forgotten...

love is pain...yes its true but does one deserve it so much that they're paralyzed by your words. i shall not be angry, nor will i have a grudge...in time maybe these tears will stop... but until then be wary of my barriers...you brought them back.. after working so hard for their destruction