Identity I can never reveal

I can not escape my past it has made do horrible things in the name of a identity i can never reveal.

It has taken everything I have everything I have ever loved everything I have ever achieve it has taken it all away from me.

It has made me do the things I do the things I said the hurt, betrayal, pain, and everything that is darkness.

But every now and them I become strong enough to seal it away and with time I get weak and just like that its free to do what it wishes.

The people I have hurt you know first hand how bad I can be how heartless it is.

But know this you have no idea how much I hurt trying, forcing, begging it to stop.

How the words just roll out of my mouth how the reactions its intentions just do its will.

Its like a soul trap in a body that has no control over it until the damage is all done.

For i have hurt someone so dear to me that I can never forgive it.

With every ounce of breath in me what ever good is left in me I will cage you in me forever never to hurt the ones I love so dear to me.

written 3-14-2007