Happens for a reason

Why do we do the things that we do?

Everything happens for a reason doesn't matter if its good or
bad it its meant to be its meant to be.

I just didn't want to go through it all over again but it wasn't my choice it doesn't hurt me like it did in the past.

It doesn't bother me at all I drank the night away trying not to remember the hurt the pain the whys and how could you god.

But its not you god nor me its whatever that person is going through.

In the end I hope it doesn't came back to them because what goes around comes around.

Thats what happen to me just another reason to close my heart turn my warmth into coldness my happiness into anger my sadness into a hellish grin.

It gave me a reason to turn everything good about me into everything I feared.

The sadistic part is that I'm loving it.

I miss the old me his back never again will I be the Javy I once was he died 2-23-07.

I'm glad that this happen made me realize how weak I have become over the years every bad boy goes soft not this bad boy not this demon in sheep's clothing.

You know who you are and I thank you for turning me back into the old cold heartless me.

Everything happens for a reason you taught me that.

OH WELL better luck next time.

written 2-27-27