I Can't Be Peter Pan

Reality is bittersweet
Being filled with hope and pain
For once I'd like a rainbow
That doesn't require the rain

Self-inflicted or unjust
Problems still weigh me down
It takes less muscles to smile
But there's more reasons to frown

Tomorrow's rays of light
Are beneath today's shadow
The mindset that I'm in
Allows few happy places to go

The Peter Pan left in me
Wants so badly to fly away
Or be as if a child
Let youth be my escape

But struggles can be lessons
If I let myself learn
It could help me in the future
To not burn or be burned

I'm tired of hurting others
Or being the one whose hurt
So it's time to stop my fall
Before landing in the dirt

I'll put this fairytale
Back on the shelf where it belongs
I've been living my life now
As a child for way too long

So I accept responsiblity
And will take steps to do things right
There is nothing worth having
That doesn't require a fight