I never thought the day I'd stand it front of you and be able to say that I love you with all my heart and mean it. I had so much to bare in this heart you can call mine. To tell you the truth my heart never did belonged to me, all the men I've been with have tooken it to keep for themsleves but theres just one thing, they never truth wanted it they just wanted to break it tell it was no more. I've learned something sense I've met you, it wasnt really there to take, I never had a heart for anyone to take exsept for you. All it was just broken dreams that werent really reality tell you stud in front of me. I understand now. You were the one person that could get through me. The man I truely thought he was the one, The one who truely had me. Had me in his hold, He controled my thinking, my mind was so wraped around his hands, All he had to say is that he loved me and it was all over. I went back and forth trying to figure out what it was that I couldn't leave. I went through a period of my life where I tried killing myself to make him pay for distroying who I was. I just wanted to make him feel how I was feeling everytime he would leave myside to his mistress. I never understood why and How he could ever make me feel this way, But to be honest he never truely care about what I wanted as long as he got what he needed. He told me stories to cover the truth, He played games with life and death. Now I find out the truth and It dont hurt me as much as I thought it would. I truely believed his lies. He made up stories of family member dieing so he can go out and play. I guess what I'm trying to get through is I never have and never will love him, Theres no one out there for me axcept for you. My mind, heart, and soul are at ease now. No more wondering No more pain, No more stress, No more mond games.
