Suicide Note (my fav one ive writen yet)

I wrote you a letter,
Well suicide note,
I confessed my feelings,
And my fears,
Spoke of my anger,
Whilst drowning myself in tears,
I wish you knew how I felt,
Wish you knew what this poem was about,
But since you don't I slit my wrist,
And continue begging not to exist,
How did my life become this living hell?
How did your words put me under such a spell?
Why did you lie about how you cared?
If it were true then I would have been there,
There in your arms filled with joy,
No agony and all pain destroyed,
But since it's a lie I hold this gun to my head,
Pull the trigger and now im dead,
When you get this letter you will understand,
Why I bleed,
Why I cried,
And why im now dead,
But the only thing I am trying to say,
Is I love you tom,
I love you babe.