The secret

Do you know how hard it is to live a secret for years?
Feels like your living in seclusion wrapped in all of your fears
Going on day by day but it isnt really as it appears
Hoping no praying that it soon disappears

So completely worn out from this life that youve led
You fill chewed up and spit out, you feel left for dead
Wanting to scream out from all the tears that you have shed
Always moving forward but yet never getting ahead

Wanting to reach in and pull out the poison
Situation never changing yet they say God has a reason
Asking ourselves how long we must endure this season
Looking for a way out but seems there really isnt one

You can never tell anyone in confidence of the one youre protecting
Its not their wishes, their request or secret, but the person you are respecting
Whenever someone suspects, its youre truth that I am deflecting
Dont try butting in, snooping around or inspecting

I wont let you in or past the protective bars
Im too busy crying, trying to cover up all of the scars
Its not a news bulletin for anyone, but the secret is all ours
But oh how I pray with such fervency when I look up to the stars

I want to be free from the solitude; I just want to break free
I want our life to go along as others, not in secret, just normally
I will never betray you, for I have vowed to love you eternally
And so it seems all of this I will take to the grave with me

Our secret life together, they say for better or for worse
Not understanding why we have to carry around this curse
But over all of the obstacles with you I will traverse
And our secret dont worry, I will never disburse!