Imagine living yet you're not fully alive
everything goes on normally around you...people are the same
laughing mouths, talkative movements
yet the world is muted
you don't hear anything
you wake up everyday; look at yourself in the mirror
and see so many scars...so many things different
but nobody else can see them,, you wear a mask that hides it all
you go on throughout your day, silent world, thoughts too loud
wondering about memories
memories that are all you have left [ they are what keeps you going in a world that has stopped turning ]
wind blows your hair, you feel it sway from left to right, but the air is dry against your skin
walking to class. step. step. step. stop.
you see the places you know so well <the ones where those memories> where created
squinting eyes reveal a soft imprint of a feeling that once was there
holding hands
night time falls and loneliness rises.
i want you. i need you. i miss you.
the blankets weigh you down, but the tears drown you. whose arms does he hold tonight?
whose body entwines with his? what was that? you thought you felt his presence.
but no- it was just a trick your imagination caused- the imagination of your heart
i want you. i need you. i miss you.
thinking back to those days of sun::: secret smiles and minute kisses
it must have been a dream, a beautiful, magical dream. where you were the prince and i was the princess living in the world we created...a castle of love
three words never spoken
831 spoken too loud so loud
the though was . . . .{ silenced } by simple gaze of two lover's eyes
i want you. i need you. i miss you.
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goes by with patience
living without a heart has become normal
all you have are pictures, locked inside your head with a special key your heart holds
but the f e e l i n g s have hidden;; pain has become a part of you
&& when you least expect it...
him. again.
you weren't ready. no book can help you with this one
feelings rush back...volcanoes of emotion EXPLODE;; you're not ready. no no NO
831 words spoken too loud
i want you. i need you. i miss you.
laying lifeless on the hallway___he comforts you |what has he done|
he created this hideous masterpiece lying on the ground. dried out from all the tear shed
`i need you` you say `im here` he says
i wanted you. i need you. i missed you.*
