Broken Hearted 16 Year Old Me

I thought if I hurt you
and pushed you away
You would come around
and here you would stay.
I know it sounds stupid
a contradiction and such
But my irrationalities
For you were too much.
The insults were flying,
but tears would not fall
When inside is empty
Put up is a wall.
But beneath my bitterness
Lies real pain
And I'm sorry I hurt you
Time and time again.
When you leave
I float in a sea of blue
Don't you know that
I'm in love with you?