Guilt

** old poem. i made this around early December 2007.
I forgot to write down the exact date. ugh. but the situation I'm talking about happened on November 29 cause it was our school's early release.

I feel so guilty knowing I did something I never should've done.
I have to stay here and feel remorse when all I wanted to do is run.

Making the wrong immature choices, acting like I don't own a brain.
Everybody asks about it but they don't understand when I explain.

It's easy to answer how I did it, but not the question "why"
I struggled to defend myself truthfully, my throat begins to dry.

I don't get it why my actions seems to be very interesting to them.
But they said they don't care about me, how come it's me they condemn?

My heart crushes every time I think about myself, them and you.
I bet nobody my age knows what it feels like of what I'm going through.

My situation is exceedingly complicated, not even myself can understand.
I'm confused on how to deal with it, everything is left unplanned.