Its my birthday soon

Its my birthday soon,
But I dont want anything.
I just want to think of you,
Its like a blessing.

You make me feel,
All warm and loved.
Unlike everyone else,
They just get shoved.

When you came on msn,
You lit up my whole day.
But when you stopped talking,
My whole world went gray.

I sit here waiting for you,
With a fake smile on my face.
Just as I give up you come online,
And my heart starts to race.

Sometimes youre happy,
And sometimes youre sad.
Its not always good,
But its not always bad.

I try to be there,
When you need to talk.
But sometimes I fail,
And then you go for a walk.

I know I am not the best,
And I make a lot of mistakes.
But with out you,
My whole world starts to shake.

Thank you my darling,
For putting up with my shit.
Sorry for the way I have been,
Behaving I must seem like a twit.

I love you hunni,
No matter what you say.
I am sorry if you dont like it,
But it will always be this way.