To my best friend:
Well if your reading this then your at my house crying and ready to kill someone but just let it go theres been enough heartaches here today. Best friend I love you and I'm so sorry to have done this to you, I know that people throw sorry at you like its just a five letter word but believe me I'm sorry and I never meant to hurt you and I want you to stay strong and promise me you wont follow in my footsteps cause you are an amazing person and one of the best friends I ever had. You deserve to be happy and do not be sad bout this, I do not want you to cry, just remember the times we have had both the good and the bad ( I know its gonna be hard but do not bottle shit up it messes people up trust me I know)
Its not your fault there was nothing anyone could of done I was already gone, yea I know I'm taking the easy way out but I just ant take this shit piling up on me anymore and I cant take the constant fighting n feeling like I never do anything right I mean seriously I have to something right sooner or later and to me this is me finally doing something right cause now everyone that claims I make them so miserable can be happy and I will be happy too cause I wont have to deal with their shit and I can just be left alone. I'm just so far in that I cant find a way out n this is my only option left. I love you pal and I'm extremely lucky to have a friend like you and I'm sorry to leave you like this but promise me that you will never loose that spark about you cause I never met anyone like you n do not conform to society and the drug-free world.. if weed makes you happy then blaze that shit but I dunno what else to say except do not cry just be happy for me cause I hate it when you cry( I know your probably rolling your eyes wondering how your suppose to be happy bout loosing your best friend ) but you can do it and u have your whole life ahead of you so live it to the fullest and please do not forget about me.
Take care of my brother cause without me he is gonna be a mess later. If he even remembers me but make sure you do not let people talk shit bout me and pretend they were my best friends at my funeral n shit cause we both know who my real friends are and take care of yourself to you just gotta be strong and I know you can be. I love you best friend n I'm sorry goodbye
*sorry its so damn long but i wrote this one night when i was going to kill myself but right as i was going to she called and talked me out of it somehow i still feel like killing myself but i cant hurt her like that when she needs me the most. If you read this and have thoughts of killing yourself too then feel free to message me I'll try to help the same way my friend did.
