I lay upon a crowded road
While mind brandished a ghastly load
I lay upon a wretched wench
Whose heart for me won't budge an inch
When I lay me down to sleep
The dreams, they come, they make me weep
Once I laid, my friend beside
Right then, I saw how much she cried
I thought, "You fool! You ought be dead!
You have no love inside your head!
You live for you and you alone
Until you die and turn to bone!"
I knew my mind had not been well
It made my life a living hell
But ney I cared! So I stayed true
And brushed it off as deja vu
Then conscience called, and yelled again
Said, "Great One, leave this life of sin!
Sin not to God, but to your mind!
Please change to stop this mental grind!
Or I swear to make you dream
The dreaded things that make you scream
I'll take your heart and tear it open
Till you become a dreaded omen."
I cried, "I'll try! I'll try! I will!
I can't be killed while standing still!"
So as I lay with life in hand
I made the choice that changed a man
I was with a friend somewhat like me
Who showed the world the greatest glee
But in her mind the greatest rage
Had put her in the smallest cage
So then and there I made a call
To one who wasn't there at all
Then I made use of a machine
And gave my heart, so as it seemed
I said, "I love you more than me!
I miss our days of love and glee!
I can't give up, I can't give in
To the past that never let me win!
And so I ask for your sweet love
To keep me in a state above."
She called and said, "Oh me! Oh my!
I think your heart has gone awry!
For I have found my perfect mate
And you, good sir, must change your fate."
I was shaken, while my friend
Took steps to calm me down again
But then I broke, and then I cried
I wasn't sure I hadn't died
I cursed my mind, for it's deceit
Had led to a most awful feat
For when I looked, then I could see
Tremors had their grasp on me
I shook and cried against my strife
My greatest love had left my life
As I lay here, broken-hearted
Friends have come and others parted
I know some are worse off than I
But for this I don't plan to cry
My life is good, I know this well
But now I know the face of hell
Still I found one thing I won
The voice inside my head is done
For now I know that I can care
I know my love will not be bare
My love is gracious, great and true
All of this is something new
Before I was a worthless shell
I lived my life and lived it well
But then I changed, and as I lay
I found that love is the best way
I can't be happy without it