Darkest Night of my life

Cutting through the darkest night
Of my bleeding broken life
Lose it to the soft twilight
An end to tears, an end to strife

My life is crumbling cold to dust
A melody of pain
These tears are turning me to rust
A damaged empty frame

I’m crashing like a tidal wave
Dragging me out to sea
Far too stranded, for you to save
Marooned in nightmares, I will be

Dreaming comes so easily
A forgotten fairytale
Disfigured thoughts enchanting me
Sweet agony so pale

Once upon a sweetened heart
I was falling in love
Now I’m only falling apart
Longing to be sent above

The deadly scented smoky air
Dances in my throat
Filling my soul with damp despair
Drowning my haunted boat

Screaming in my rotting skin
My weeping lullaby
This war I know I cannot win
So is it enough to die?

My jigsaw pieces fall away
Exposing my raw core
Daggers cause my heart to fray
Shivering so sore

Embers sigh in the hot flame
Scorched fingers burn
Swaying flickers I cannot tame
For the rain I yearn

Forever is starting now tonight
Beautiful lumps of coal
Brittle eyes, you’re not in sight
I slide into my soul

Choking on a soothing dream
To reinvent your name
A total eclipse of bloody streams
My armour again to blame

Spaces beneath my withered frame
Squirming silent pleas
The moist illusions twist the same
Praying to be free

Phobic liquid wires my impulse
I clench my wrists
Someone please check my pulse
My shrivelled fists

Blinding days lose me in the dark
I envision the scene
Inhaling slow the fading dusk
Too late to redeem

Splintered rain spikes my mind
Truthful lies contort
I stare in the mirror still blind
The cold glass distorts

Can’t close my eyes to escape
Painful days of sorrow
I live my nightmare wide-awake
Happy days it borrows

Count the seconds away to the sound
Of your healing voice
My torture too tightly wound
Smothering my voice

You chase away the cold chills
My covers fall away
From deep inside my worries spill
Refreshing water sprays

I make myself translucent
To let you through
My heart remains transparent
Wondering what to do

That bandaged heart creeks
Hues of blue invade
An evanescence of silhouettes speak
The light slips and fades

With every heartbeat tears do swell
The final prodigy
In my heart my past still dwells
Spears for eternity

Every breath rips me slowly apart
Grinding at the bone
Misery plucks strings in my heart
Tuning every moan

In this cave I will always lay
Listening to the hope
Until the soil around me decays
And I can no longer cope