The time came...
The clock ran out...
It happened.
That talk.
That discussion.
You, me, us....
She covered the picture of us. She put what she gave me in front. She asked if I was mad; she asked why. I told her she knew--she isn't that stupid. She replied with a cover up "I just put it where it fit"... but nothing fits over my memories of you.
She said it hurt that I still thought of you. She laughed at my love for you. She said I wasn't mature enough, I was in need, I was an easy target, I couldn't have known any better.
My heart knows love, though. For it had never felt it, but dreamt of it day and night. You were what I had been dreaming of my whole life. You were someone who cared, someone who understood, someone who was there, someone who loved, and did so unconditionally. You were the only someone. You remain the only one. You will forever stay the only one for me.
She said you were the responsible one. You were in the wrong.
It takes two. Why don't you blame me? I started it. I took part. Why don't you hate me? Responsibility does not discriminate. I was fully aware. I did it as well. Why aren't you mad at me? I was the one who betrayed you. I was the one who lied. I was the one who failed you. Why don't you blame me?
She said you took advantage. You knew that I was weak. You never loved me. You only took advantage.
Than why did she risk everything? Why did she give up all she had? If I was just another girl, why would she give up her life? She risked everything. I risked none. She has nothing, all because of me. Why would she give up so much to someone who meant nothing?
She said I'll look back and regret this. I'll realize how stupid I was. I'll grow up and loathe that part of my life. I'll want nothing to do with the past.
I will regret letting her help. I'll regret letting her down. I'll hate that I allowed this to happen, but not that I gave her my heart. I will regret not waiting. I'll regret all I betrayed. I'll regret I let her support me, and allowed her to fall for me. I'll regret not leaving them sooner. I'll regret the kindness I showed them. I'll regret allowing them to beat us.
