Depression

I am struggling to fight this back
I want to move on with my life
but with this here I can not

All the pills they don't effect me
and when i ask for the help
I'm not taken seriously

i wish this would all be over
so i could smile again
i want to be able to go places alone
and feel that i can keep myself safe

i want the help
but we cannot afford it
and they say i just want attention

i cannot sleep
for i fear what my dreams may do

this struggle is just not fair
I'm dealing with depression
and it seems that theres no help

i will try and make it through the day
and save me from myself

i want to make a plan
and know that i can survive
i know that there is no reason to die
but the feelings i cannot just push out of my body

i need to go back where i came from
and maybe spend a few weeks there

i need to get away from myself
to find there is a way
someone please tell me what i did to deserve
this pain I'm going through

i want answers and solutions
i want to be happy again