I just can't seem to be able to keep my heart away from you, I'm sorry.
I never knew I could ever feel like this...
I love you so much...
I want to help you so much...
I need you so much...
I never felt this way before.
I never thought it's possible for me to smile...
I never thought just the sound of someone's voice could brighten my day...
I never thought I could ever be happy...
I never thought that one person could change my whole life...
I never thought I'd have something to live for...
But now you're gone, and my purpose is starting to fade. My hopes became a cloud of ash. My thoughts became my enemy. My wishes are far beyond my reach.
I have to live my life pretending you are still by my side... that's the only way I can make it through a day... and my days aren't that tough.
I still say goodnight to both of you each night, even though you resent it...
I still look at both of your pictures believing I am looking into your eyes.
I still act like I have someone that's there for me...
...Because, for me, knowing I'm helplessly in love with someone that might now even care anymore is the most painful feeling achievable. Living for someone who has made me a distant regret is more hurtful than a blade through my heart. Knowing you're out there just beyond my reach, and I can't touch you, is tearing me apart.
My heart still beats for you.
I still live for you.
I am still head over heels in love with you.....
....and I'm still sorry.
