Ever tried taking your life?
Wishing, hoping, praying, that this would be your last night?
Sitting up, tired of wiping away the tears.
Looking in the mirror each morning, acting as if there were no more fears?
See the happy faces, wonder whose is real & whose is fake?
Ever feel like, the harder you try to hold on, the more pressure there is, pushing you to fall to the ground?
Where, all you want to do, is say goodbye, no pain .. No worries .. No fear.
The more you cut, the deeper you go, the less blood you lose.
As you watch the world around you, go to a blur, you're hoping that this is it. It's your time to go.
You sit & think, about all that you've gone through in life, the people you know & who you're starting to let go of.
You remember how fake you used to be, putting on that smile, I mean.
Making the people around you, think that everything was alright.
It makes you sick, sitting there & thinking how you tried so hard, to be everything you're not.
Claiming you know who you are, & that'll never change.
As you get closer to the time, you push away everyone you care about most, leaving everything behind.
You make the people you love, hate you, say things you don't mean, just so they'll leave.
When your mom walks in the bathroom, sees you lying there.
Lifeless, without hope, putting an end to all the pain & tears.
As she falls to her knees, holding you in her arms, praying for you to come back.
Saying how sorry she was, that she didn't listen, was never there, didn't catch you before you fell. You watch, as a tear drips down her face. You realize how much she cares.
As you drift away slowly, you wish you could take it back.
You want to start over again, take the pain, instead of the goodbye.
