Love Note

I wanted to you to know something whether anything comes out of it or not, I am sending this in hopes that no matter how you feel about what I have written that we can still be friends.

I have been thinking about you ever since the day I met you, the first time we went out we felt like old time lovers and friends. The first kiss was lovely and the first time we made love/had sex (whichever way you want to take it) was a magical moment.

I don't know how I got hooked on you. I have no clue why my mind always strays to think about you and baffled why my heart misses you. I ask myself what is it about this man that makes me want to be close to him? Let me say I am in no way asking anything relationship wise. I am just telling you what has been going on in my mind.

I think you know that I am feeling you, I think you know, I like you because I feel that the feelings are the same. It is crazy, sometimes in the silence of the night when all things are still, my thoughts take me to you, don't ask me why, I have no answer, if I did I probably wouldn't be telling you how I feel.

When I see you my heart glows, my body warms and smile comes across my face. The expectations of seeing makes me nervous. I sometimes too loose all sensible functions. I stay far because I know how I want to hug you, and marinate in your arms. I take glances because my eyes will tell you a story that you never heard, and even though I don't see you everyday my heart does, my mouth releases your name in the air in hopes that you are thinking about me too.

When I see you I feel your vibes, to me it says, that you want to be close to me, that you want to touch me, kiss me, lay me down and have your way with me.
I've kept things so I can go back and read them again, it fills that void of not seeing you, to me it brings me some peace in this never ending thinking machine.
Please don't think that I am a stalker, I can say my heart is because it wants you and my mind is because I can't stop thinking about you.

Please don't think I want you to uproot your world because I am not asking that. I want you to know the feelings I have inside because you never know what tomorrow brings. I don't know if this is a phase, I don't think it is. I am not lonely, or desperate for companionship. I think that there is something between us, that we both are scared of. Scared of the disappointments that we have experienced before. I just know that I want to be your friend and lover, I want you know how I feel so maybe this pulling of your soul may set me free, or it may even pull me and you closer, I don't know, I can only tell you what I am feeling inside. I know it is not wanting something that I can't have, when I have already had it, and could of kept it.

Could it be the possibility of what could be? Are you the "If" in my heart? Maybe one day time will reveal it's hidden plans, or if life is cruel, I will never know the answer and my yearning for you will continue to the end. I hope you take the pleasure of knowing if you ever feel unloved or if you ever feel lonely or think that you are not loved, I want you to know that you can come back to this moment, this time, this letter of my feelings to know that, you are loved, you don't have to be lonely, and that somewhere out here in this big vast world, no matter where we both end up, I want you know and you should know that I Love You!

Some say that you should tell people how you feel and let them deal with their own feelings about what was said and I thought I would take this chance to tell you.