Mixed emotions

I put my heart in a jar,
And put it high up on a shelf.
No more will i let my love go far,
I'll just sit and keep it to myself.

I'm afraid to give my heart out again,
Cause i feel my heart is stuck on him.
I can feel his kisses on my skin.
But my soul hurts like the thorns on a rose's stem

I want to be alone,
But i find myself searching for affection.
Nothing can stop him from being gone,
But i still long for his protection.

I think about my time with you,
And the tears roll down my face.
Your memory is on my heart like a tattoo,
It cant be removed or replaced.

I loved you with all my heart,
and baby I still do.
But it feels I'm being torn apart,
Leaving me lonely and bruised.

I just want to be in your arms,
Just like we used to be when we were together.
For once in my life i felt safe from all harm,
We loved each other no matter what the relationships weather.

But our time is over,
just that one moment and it was all gone.
And i find it hard to stay sober,
I just hate that i am all alone.